Shadowstar-287

The tighter I try to hold on, the less grip I seem to have To the point I don’t even know what I’m grasping for What is it I’m missing? Why can’t I find it? Why can’t my highs be longer than a few weeks, maybe months Before I come crashing back down, gasping for air? My chest is tight Palms sweaty And my body feels as if it’s fraying at every seam. Every joint, a knot undone Until I can barely stand under the crushing weight of my own breath. The writing, the drinking, the men, They’re only distractions To be used for external pleasure. But when I’m alone Stuck in my own head, The weight on

You cannot say that you love me when you have not seen me at my best. When you have not seen me at my worst. Unless you have been with me through those sleepness nights. Held me when I cried Held my hand when I was scared or uncertain. Unless you were there when I was screaming Wanting to bash my head against the wall but I wouldn't because you are there. That was my only reason. Unless you have seen me as I'm beautiful as well as first thing in the morning No makeup Disheveled. Unless you have seen me at my strongest But was still there to be my support when I couldn't support my own weight. When you can tell exactly what I'm

A family meets, bound for once only by their pain Those thought to be stone showed that they're not that vain They laugh, they cry They come to say good-bye A withered, pallored shadow is he Mocks the man he used to be As the easter lily wilts There are those who blame themselves solely There are those who accept no responsibility, but blames others only And then there are those who blame life God, the cosmos, Fate, whoever causes this mortal strife We stand in a circle and pray, even though I don't believe I'm surprised I know the words, but I, too, should grieve In the proper way. This isn't about me And still the easter lily

I can't believe I'm trying to write again, Can't believe I'm holding this long-forgotten pen. I guess I'm just used to writing when something's wrong, Not when everything in my life's stable, finally growing strong. So is it pathetic that I can't stop thinking about it? It is sad that the memories from last night won't quit Playing over and over in my head Whenever I shut my eyes to go to bed? You and me laying under the covers Talking, saying things that others Will never hear, what they'll never know. Other days dressed up, going where we wouldn't go. Now I fully understand what it means to be addicted to this feeling Instead o

3.97 GPA, second in the graduating class But I'm just the blonde in the back row, so you wouldn't dare to ask My opinions on politics, the economy, or even controversial issues. You expect every sentence to start with "Well.. like...," so instead you choose A neanderthal who has brawn... but no brain. So tell me, what were you hoping to gain? Some don't see it, but women have been powerful from the start. What we lack in physical strength we make up for in endurance and heart. Yes, we're the ones who did the cooking, cleaning, even milking the cows and goat. But we're also the ones who fought for decent jobs and the right to vote.

One foot after the other, don't look down. Don't look at the mass of predators waiting on the ground. They're tigers, each with their name written in the stripes of their coats Making me their prey is the only means for them to gloat. Taking a deep breath, I hold the bar across my chest and take another step, Steadying myself from the last time one of the tigers had leapt. Why is it that sometimes I can walk with ease, without a care? And other times the wire cuts into my feet, making me wobble and not dare To look around, because I know they're licking their lips Imagining the chunks of flesh, the tears and the rips. Insecurity is

The night passes on in a silent drone And again I try to get to sleep while laying alone Memories of last time we were together keep playing through my head And I remind myself again that I don't want to be in my own bed. Flipping through songs, I play the ones that we share, The meaningful ones were what we chose with the utmost care. Tossing, turning, and I still can't get to sleep. Clutching the forgotten jacket you told me to keep. And it still smells like you, covering my bed with your scent. Making me drowzily try to remember where you went. I know I'll see you soon, but it's never soon enough Making me wait like this is just

Yes, I know, sometimes life is hard. Things you most desire are often barred. But why do you find it so hard to understand? The world isn't going to bend itself to fit your demands. Enough with the pouting, take the good with the bad. It's not great now, but it's not the worse you've ever had. One can't be if the other doesn't exist. It's common sense, so why do you act like it's such a twist? A day wouldn't pass if it wasn't followed by night. We wouldn't feel peace if we hadn't seen the fight. You wouldn't feel pain if you've never known pleasure. You wouldn't know rags if you've never seen treasure. You couldn't feel love and n

Those big, round eyes, filled with wonder and trusting... But on the other side of the room, a patience quickly rusting. A sudden thump, a scream of pain A moment you can't do over again. A small, frail body, limp and bruised. Thinking of any excuse you can use  She fell out of the crib, maybe bumped her head   Doesn't take the paramedics long to realize that she's dead A tiny coffin plus a hundred tears And the man responsible gives only a few years. He's not charged with second degree murder, no, that'd be twenty-five to life He gets out early on good behavior after killing the daughter of his wife He gets to go on with his lif

When you go, I'm not holding you back. Dream awake and fly without wings, because the impossible is exactly what you are. Life was made for living with boundaries, but death was made for going beyond the boundaries... I'm setting you free tonight and hope to see you again, when the galaxies become our stepping-stones and the music of joy is what we'll dance to. Everyone says that their loved one's lives were cut short too soon-- well, it's always too soon... Look at me with your splintered diamond eyes, one last time, and tell me you'll be okay. Promise me that you won't wait for me, won't let my love for you, and yours for me, become prett

I think I'm falling apart. Slowly I suffocate. I can't breathe. I can't sleep soundly anymore. I yearn for desolation. Slowly scathed by the rapture of your decrepit heart. Tear me apart. Rip me to shreds. Look into my eyes. Lie to me. Tell me you need me. Tell me I am the only one. I know I am not. Give me your heart. I know you won't. Lie to me. I know you will. Free me. Allow me to sleep. Lie to me.

A padded cell to sleep on, another night gone, Tick tock and another test gone wrong. Chain me and leave me to hug myself until I break, I live my life by placebos and cures that are fake. If your supposed to be my beacon, Then why have you gone out? I feel like I'm reaching, And that I have to shout, The other lunatics join in. My confessions scribbled on the wall, Cryptic messages and answers that seem to call, I intrigue you; you want to see if I'll die, I'm only suffering with death by time. The dark truth of humanity written on my face, As the madness eats away and anger takes its place. Rattling on my cage, Or whistling